So lets get real, I was sitting on my couch,like most nights , trying to ignore the blaring pain that I was feeling throughout my body. I was smothered in a mix of deep heat and ice gel, propped up with multiple pillows just get anywhere near a kind of comfort, as though thats even possible.
Truth be told, I was cuddled up watching Sex and the City (because my body decided to flare and sleeping is next to impossible) and I thought how fabulous it would be to be Carrie Bradshaw, some one who wrote in brutal truth about her life. So lets just say a spoonie got inspired.
I've made youtube videos before, had made a website before, simply out of looking for answers and maybe something to fill the time, but it never quiet stuck. Maybe life got in the way but I also think my intention was never quiet clear. After taking some time off, having a baby and finally having my mystery pain being validated with a diagnosed after many hit and misses from the docs ,I started going through my old videos. I saw that even though I was in severe pain I still had fight and I seemed like a different person. I missed that part of me.
So I sat down and decided that yet again I will start filming videos, I will make another website and post more to social media, with now hopefully, a more clear intention in mind. If you are someone who deals with chronic pain, or even if you don't but you are looking for a laugh. Or even maybe a cry or overall want to hear from someone who living the most basic average life, than I post for you. But also I post for the person I was, the person I am now,and the person I want to be, and the person I will be.
I hope you enjoy The Pain Diaries.
Comments